New Beginnings

It is currently 9:31PM on March 6th, 2010. I have set up this blog to publish at 12:30PM on March 7th, which will be after the morning service of FBCEFR. I wanted to tell the church first.

God has been working in me over the last few months, drawing me to pursue worship as my ministry. I have been in youth, and for most of my life have been convinced I was to be a youth pastor. I am not saying I am renouncing my life belief, but that my calling has been focused a little more from the wide topic of youth into a narrower topic of leading young people in worship.

And so I am turning in a resignation tomorrow (Sunday). It will be hard, for obvious reasons. I'm dreadfully going to miss the awesome students I have grown so close to, but I must follow God' direction for me.

But that has gotten me thinking alot about life. I am facing some very real new beginnings. I am finishing my senior semester at school, getting married, and in search of a job to pay to the bills while I work as a intern at a local churchplant on a volunteer basis. I keep thinking how fast this is all going, and how I wish they were more spread out. But how often does that happen?

How often does someone experience change over long periods of time, as if it were perfectly organized? Rarely. But God didn't want it that way, possibly because He knows I would overall work better this way, possibly because He is testing me. I don't know, and I don't care to know, honestly. I am trusting in God, He has never let me down, and that is all I need to know.

Sometimes following God doesn't match up with your calendar. But I doubt Abraham had written in his calendar "leave everything and everyone I know, take my family, and start walking in.... that direction". Abraham probably had his calendar looking like this: "next week, I have my co-worker's office party. I need to pay my credit card payment tomorrow. I just bought a new tv and its supposed to be delivered next week" and then God told him to drop it. And you know what- he did! Today that is such a shocker- The Creator of everything told him to mess up his plans and he did!

We don't think about it, but if the President came to you and told you that you had to do something, you probably would. Why? He's the President. but when it comes to GOD, we seem as if the "normal" thing is to blow it off, or make an amazing excuse like "Ooo, bad timing God, I'm supposed to wash my hair that year...."

I'm not saying me following God was the easiest thing for me. I went through boughts of depression because I had no idea what was going to happen, but that is when you learn, when you are bearing your soul to the harsh winds of change. And I am excited to see what God has in store for the future. I hope you are as well.