when the world beats down

today was bad. terrible things didn't happen, it was just stressful. more stressful than any exam or anything i have experienced, because money that wasn't mine was on the line, and i had to make the decision.

during that time, i realized something pretty mindblowing for me: i'm not God. believe it or not, i can't run the universe (even though i try to many days).

i realized that God could solve this problem without an ounce of frustration or stress, and yet, it destroys me.

the problem wasn't really all that big, looking back on it, as much as it seemed then. funny how, at the time it seems like the world stops for our problem. how dare someone be a jerk to us when we are facing this problem.

i realized today just how big God is. just how powerful God is. and just how much we need Him. (if you don't know yet, the answer to all of those questions is "a lot")

this doesn't mean we won't face stress, because we still will. we as humans will always blow things out of proportion. we will always take out our aggression on things that will cause us more frustration.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that i'm not God, and neither are you. are problems are actually pretty small compared to the stress Christ felt before His betrayal. who do we think we are? sorry if that sounds harsh, but we're not. the sooner we learn that the better.