Helen Keller saw this before me

Sorry if the title offended you.... sorta. But it took me forever to see, and that was the best way to explain it.
So I just finished my Bible study for this morning. And God completely rocked my world.

A quick background that might explain this better: some great and Godly friends of mine are planting a church in the Lancaster/Rock Hill/ Charlotte area, we plan to physically "plant" it in Summer/Fall of 2010. They have asked me to come on as lead worshiper (I am trying very hard to start using this phrase instead of "worship leader" nothing against the term, but it doesn't, well shouldn't, reflect what I do. I should be leading through worshiping, not the other way around.)

But anyway- so I told them I would pray about it, and I did. I definitely felt God calling me there, at least to do the worship. But one thing I have been going crazy over is not the church part- but the rest of it. What will I do for money (I have to have money for strings, not to mention little things like food, water, shelter, clothes), how will I provide for my family, where will my wife work? I have spent countless hours worrying, and I told the guys this. At the meeting that week, the future pastor, as well as the rest, said (not to anyone specific, but was aimed at me) "If you can't give 100%, we don't want you. We will still love you, but God cannot work unless all of us are on board." That was friday.

So this week, I've been reading my Bible, doing my devotions (At His Feet), not really thinking about it. In my mind I was saying "my problems should not overflow into my devotion, leave those at the door"- BIG mistake. It seems that every passage I have read this week, and every piece of Christian literature was aimed at me, with the way too specific category of "leave everything behind, don't worry". Whether it be the rich man who wanted to follow Jesus but couldn't, Abraham who did leave everything, or today's passage about worrying in Matthew- they all pointed at the same thing. But I didn't see it until today.

Its funny- you pray for guidance and for God to answer you, but most of the time we say that and turn off our ears. I did. I would pray "God- show me that I should go and leave my life behind," and then basically read in Scripture "Go, leave your life behind." All I would say to that is "hm, thats some good Scripture, but God, seriously, give me a sign." I'm an idiot.

Today's passage was Matthew 6:25-34. It talks about not worrying, because nature- including birds, animals, even grass- is taken care of by God, and so are we. Grass dies quickly, but God still takes care of it while its here, so why would He not take care of our needs? It finishes with the inspirational verse that we all sing- "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness. And all these things will be added unto you." Many people believe that means we should worry about our salvation, and seeking God, because He will "add these things." In this case- WRONG! God showed me, that in this case, this verse means:
First- seek God in your own Salvation
Second- help lead others find their Salvation (by your own, and their- I do not mean anything heretical or unScriptural, I am simply using them to clarify).
You may do this by worshiping with others in a small or large setting, by sharing the Word of God, by praying, and by living a life that shows you seek God and His righteousness above all others.
Third- STOP WORRYING
Fourth- STOP WORRYING about what will happen when you stop worrying.

So I am proud to say that God smacked me in the face today and said "WAKE UP! I gave you this gift of music, and even openly and vocally (through Adam Wright) gave you an invitation to this church! Now use it!"